-- upset.upset.upset
Saturday, March 25, 2006, 11:23 PM
ii dunno y.
nowadays.
been so upsetting.
at HOME.
at a place.
where i always pan wang to go.
at that place.
where ii can feel safe.
at the place.
where ii noe ii am lovedd.
no.
ii dun hav tt kind of feelin animore.
i DUN LIKE weekends.
i WANTED to stay out.
i DUN WAN to go home.
i HATE
i LOATHE
goinn back.
home.
everiithngs wrong.
SO wrong.
ii realli hadd NO idea wat got into her.
sum san-ba auntiies taught her tt?
mayb.
everiithng.
practically EVERITHNG.
ii did.
is wrong.
nothings right.
bath.
get scolded for bathin to loong.
fiine.
acceptable.
sleep.
get scolded for sleepin too long hours.
fiine.
ii ren.
play Guzheng.
got scolded for doin sumthng USELESS
n will gain NOTHING frm it.
hao. fiine.
wo ren.
readd book.
got scolded for readinn "Charmed"
whiich she claims to b feiiwu.
FIINE.
i REN.
do project.
got scolded for being a kpo.
" y always u do other ppl never do?"
" dey can sit thre shake leg u thre do eveithng"
" jux throw eveithng at them "
" dey can shake leg u oso can shake leg wat."
" eveithng u do "
" later i dun wan to see u doinn yur project."
FIINE.
WO REN.
DO HOMEWORK.
got scolded for not finishin it YESTERDAY.
*Literature Questions
*English short essay
*Geog worksheet
*Dnt working drawing
*Pw ppt
*Macbeth ppt
HAHs.
fiinish ALL these in a day.
no.
HALF a day.
mayb less thn tt.
ii realli feel like cursinn.
where did she learn all that from????
she seems like.
she changedd COMPLETELY.
siince tis year.
whn hav u all saw mi
complainnin in mi blog last year?
and how mani times hav i done it tis year?
its obviious isnt it?
am i REALLI tt rebelious?
that she HAD to change her attitude in me???
she keeps insistinn tt ihav never workedd hard.
heyy.heyy.heyy.
tis is de verii year tt i felt i realli workedd hard!!!!
ii studiedd for everii tests.
ii revise my works.
ii do plan my timetable.
ii listedd down all my homeworks.
ii did not do ANY of the above last year.
ii did NOT even STUDIEDD for my PSLE!!!!
ii even mistaken de date for my Engliish paper!!!
hahs!
i did all dose.
yea.
ii realli wonder whether i did de correct thng.
shld ii realli.
go backk to hu i was.
rushinn works at de last moments.
dun study for tests.
at most filp through de pages for fun.
i plan my timetable
in order to hav excuse to use de com.
n dun go accordinn to it.
isnt tt more relaxinn?
MUCH more.
how niice.
slackinn everiday.
n not end up everiiday havinn "watery" sleeps.
yea.
shes disappointedd in me.
but she realli had NO idea.
NO IDEA.
wat ii did.
wat ii thnk.
wat ii.
FELT.